Id promised the wean I would take her to bellahouston center and when she came in from school she already had the cossie out before I got downstairs so there was no getting out of it.

But I managed to hammer out 20 odd lengths. Was attempting 10 or 12 of them without a break but bro interrupted me once or twice the first time and was 'told' the second.

And I managed it. By length 8 my arms were like lead... I had two of those key thingies and i swear they were like lead weights. But I did indeed managed to push out the 12, all in crawl mode, without  a break, rest or changing stroke.

What a difference from the first time when i sank on the first length and couldnt manage one to the other without a 'rest' inbetween. My body must have been well hammered and it's good to be getting back into shape.

I used to do the weights for three years so am well trained in their use but I have a hernia which scares the hell out of me so no weights just swimming and knocking hell out of myself in the spa/sauna.

Learned a few wee tricks... taking in obis oil for the steam room (analgesic) and how to use the hot room to open the pores, the steam to clean out then a cold shower to clean off. Then back to the spa then the pool so Im getting a wee 'routine' going up there. Just need to get this free/cheap entry sorted as its a fiver a throw plus the bus fares so with takin the wean tonight it cost the neck end of £20.

Now its time for some work. Need to get a backup issue done and snort hasnt been installed yet so those two are my targets. I'd asked for a wee shove but the guy was in bed, busy, couldnt be arsed or was forcing me to think for myself.

Its like all my knowledge is a motorway and before the drugs were the 'slip roads'. So I'm driving about country roads tryin to find my way onto the motorway. That make sense? Probably  not but its the best way I can describe it.

<shrug> Its like swimming... one length, then 6, then 12 etc etc... just gotta dive in and get wet.

One thing that isnt making sense is the craving/pangs. I expected my body to recover but for the mind to be behind. Yet it seems to be the other way. Brain has made that decision to stop taking drugs but my body isnt listening so its the reverse from what I expected.

Could murder a wee spliff or 'smoke' of the brown stuff but I'm sorry body... they're not on the menu so tough.

So im off to do some work... wish me luck.