Well one things for sure I feel a lot better than yesterday... part of the 'rollercoaster' or 'ride' i suppose... what a ride (snide more like).

Andy is a lot better today also... mainly cos i sat on the bugger yesterday and made sure he didnt drink.

For the two days previous to that he was drinking + sun + withdrawal + valium and all that does not = Andrew.

So with a relative day of rest yesterday he looks ok this morning and has already been out down the shops for a thing or two for my mum... so thats a load of my mind. On the couch ya bass, theres the sky remote, you wont be comfortable but it will pass... i keep telling him wee things to boost him up and by God its working.

Hurrah and huzzah.

Ill manage some work today. Made a T when i got up (bad work sign) but after shot of the three s's (shower and shave being two of them) it was straight to the coffee so... im in work mode. Not sure what I can manage though... theres some linux stuff to do, even if its only finally sorting out backups, and i quite fancy some of that. Ill clear it with the boss who should be about soon and seeing as its the weekend he might 'let me loose' but the app is calling so its his decision... i am but a follower in that respect.

The old Tam would just have went ahead with whatever i felt like... but hey, he pays the money he calls the shots and I understand that far better than i did a month or a year or even 5 ago.

So so far today i feel ok, have taken a single valium and thats the first time i woke up and done the 'three s's thing'.

I *am* getting over this, i know i am... almost universally those i talk to say im more 'coherent' and the lady at the signy ony place yesterday actually mentioned that i was a different person.

And those that see me say the same... so this *is* working... just need to stick it out :)