We're definately on the home straight folks.

Was up today shortly after 9am and have been out to the health center, nipped to the bookies for a favour, down to the man that can for Andys valium and went up to my favourite aunties afterwards for a coffee/chat.

And all without a single substance in me. There were 6 or so on the table when i got up but was determined to try and get through the day without them/one. As I came out the leisure center I clocked the can of beer in my bag thats been there since last week and was gonna have it as a celebration.

But no... I wanted a full day of no substances (whats one of them like I wondered) so didnt drink it.

However its now after 9pm and have just taken a single valium cos im feelin 'edgy' and 'pangy'... more so than normal today but with nothing inside me to counter it that was to be expected.

So im fucking proud of that... and yes i will swear.

I just managed an entire days activity without a foreign substance inside me for the first time in over 20 years.

If i wasnt on weed I was drinking or at the dancing and on ecstasy and speed or whatever... something every day for 20 years and yet I just proved to myself I can get through a day without it.

Godam its a scary prospect though... nothing i can put my finger on... just apprehension at being a 'normie'.

Guess thats what I am now (well, nearly)... a 'normie'.

*ME* *TAM*... a normie.

/me swoons

Am off for a few games of poker before tidying up this blog as a .doc which i intend to publish somewhere or other cos this has been a hell of a journey.

Gnite folks.