Ok folks... this thing is nearly over.

I still have a wee bit to go as far as getting firmly back in the saddle over work but... the point of this blog/diary was to fight the drug addiction and I seem to have achieved it… albeit with a lot of help and tips from all of you and I can only thank you as whilst my resolve was solid your help/comments/phone calls during the ‘black days’ definitely helped and who knows… I may have lapsed without it.

I am totally drug free... no heroin, opiates of any kind in fact, no hash... nothing for the first time in my entire adult life… and I feel fantastic. Even the ‘blip’ was now 15 days ago so that’s 20 days in total. Its taken 3 weeks in total after a week before than on a reduction course. So a total of 28 days to get that shit out of my system.

I still get the odd pang and craving but they pass quickly when I just go and do something else. So that’s two major tips I can give right now.

#1 Don’t get bored. I’m lucky enough to have work but others won’t. Go to the park and feed the ducks, go swimming, go do something and I promise those cravings will pass.

#2 Do not mix in company that takes drugs. The temptation will be too strong.

What I need to avoid now is relapsing which I'm 99% sure wont happen as too much has happened/been gone through and I’d be slapping you all in the face (as well as myself) should that happen… so it wont… I solemnly promise.

I have registered http://tamsbigfight.com where I intend to publish this blog as an independent webpage. Depending on how it goes, for those out there that are still suffering and/or wanting to give up, I may turn it into some kind of forum/general drug help site and maybe even an IRC channel as for sure there are people out there in total despair with no-one and to provide them with somewhere to go ‘to get it out’ and ‘talk’ and ‘cry’ and ‘shout’ would provide me with enormous satisfaction and only enhance these last weeks.

So you can check that out in the coming weeks as I get it set up.

Giving up drugs, especially heroin, *is* possible to do… you just have to want it badly enough.

By the way, the steak dinner last night was fantastic. Sat and watched the football (hurrah, Celtic are in Europe) and I was right, I was indeed hungry enough I could easily have ordered another steak and scoffed that too. Then we came back and had a few beers and a chat/talk which was just wonderful.

A ‘normal’ life now lies in front of me and I await it with relish.

/me bows low to everyone and leaves to do some work.